read on.

Pop goes the weasel

Amelia — Thu, 01 Jul 2010 08:03:32 +0000

Kraft Foods Company looking for intern in the CHOCOLATE CATEGORY!! I want! But how do they expect to find interns for full time basis from July to Dec?

When everything falls apart, you’re the only hope for this heart. I should stop caring what people think and try listening to my own advice sometimes.

have to

Amelia — Mon, 28 Jun 2010 15:15:22 +0000

drag. myself. to. w.o.r.k. today was so draggy it was so hard to keep myself from running away.

travel bug travel bug. eye bug eye bug. you bug.

is it weird, i just want the next phase of life to start soon. it’s not about discontentment or “the grass is always greener on the other side”, (or wanting to get married for that matter), it’s just wanting to move on.

stuck.

10 dollar woes

Amelia — Wed, 23 Jun 2010 03:51:52 +0000

oh dear. left with a 10 dollar note in my wallet for the rest of the month. which is, a total of 8 grand days. i thought i was doing pretty well. guess not. how come i eat so much??!!

sightreading life

Amelia — Mon, 21 Jun 2010 08:12:43 +0000

what’s so difficult about change is uncertainty, not knowing where you’re going, delving into the realm of the unfamiliar. you are forced to step out of your comfort zone, test waters, take risks, make mistakes, fall, muster up enough courage to stand up again and again. that’s why routine is so enticing even though we all say we detest it. that’s why most people fear sightreading. you can’t spend time/effort practising, it’s walking into unfamiliarity and not being sure whether you’re hitting the right stuff, stopping and restarting over and over again, a test to see how well you deal with unpredictability, twists and turns, a test to see how well you perservere and continue until you reach the end of the dreaded piece.

having said that, i never disliked the sightreading component. i thought it was fun because it was something you could never ever practise for, technically. in fact, i looked forward to it because i could play something other than the other 3-4 set pieces that were drilled into my brain (or rather, fingers) for months. to play something new is a delight, it’s refreshing. mistakes are inevitable, but you learn to correct and continue with the set pace. the more you sightread, the better you become at it. the more you stick to the same old pieces you know, you’ll never learn to handle variety and change because you can’t stand to make mistakes. when you reach the end of every piece, there is a sense of satisfaction, not pride, satisfaction. because you know you made mistakes, moved on, made less mistakes, moved on, and despite all, you reached the end.

that’s how life is, isn’t it?

heart

Amelia — Sun, 20 Jun 2010 15:58:11 +0000

paper cut. tears. whichever that means.

I really hate where I am. alone.

This-coloured

Amelia — Tue, 15 Jun 2010 05:39:24 +0000

I think it’s easy to plaster a smile over your face and hold it up there for some time. But when will the plaster-smile lose its stickiness and fall out?

I keep saying, things have changed. But am I supposed to be bothered? I guess it’s a good thing I’m not. I’m just glad I’m not the only one…

There’s a tainted view, a broken laugh, a coloured opinion. How do I look beyond all these?

Ignorance = Bliss

Soap?

Amelia — Fri, 04 Jun 2010 03:33:35 +0000

camille: what are you working as ah?
me: im interning at pearson! (kathy’s office)
publishing/editing
camille: ths SOAP company?
OH.
hahahahhahahahaha
me: SOAP?!?!?!?!?!? HAHAHAHA
camille: hahahahahhahahahaha
me: HAHAHAH
camille: i THINK
that’s PEARS
me: omggggoodness
camille: hahahhahahahahaahha

this made me smile at the screen haha.

Observation

Amelia — Wed, 02 Jun 2010 07:17:47 +0000

There’s something about the office atmosphere that seems slightly dismal.

I wonder why.

money matters

Amelia — Sun, 30 May 2010 14:56:26 +0000

I am going to save money. I determine with all my heart to save. I don’t want to have an empty bank account.

shopping
food
transport i.e. cab
books
seekrit project expenditure
movies

that’s all I spend on actually.
I guess I can cut down on some.
do more walking, watch less movies, no more clothes bags nonsense stationary notebooks, eat less junk and rubbish, eat budget food, bring food from home etc.

OK CAN.

boo

Amelia — Sat, 01 May 2010 15:25:46 +0000

err, please help me remember that i have one last paper to go before i’m officially free cause today i kinda forgot that… and i watched ip man 2. awesome! love this kind of chinese martial arts stuff.

anyway while studying i like to listen to moosik and there’s this song on youtube i chanced upon recently and i quite like it. i know people go like, ‘eeyer’, ‘huh’ or whatever lame expressions if anyone professes to like her. i’m no fan of hers and i don’t watch hannah montana, but i don’t diss her either, cos it doesn’t make a difference to her or the world to care or not, so i’m neutral. but this song is sweet and sad at the same time, i like the truth found in the words. it kinda made me think of growing up and leaving, flying away and finding yourself. haha if all those thoughts can make sense together, you know what i mean.